I am still ALIVE.

Living and breathing :]

Life has been pretty much the same.

Except I will be apart from BB for awhile :'(

He has started work (ORD already btw!), and have sailed away..

Won't be back till half a year later.

This is the longest we'll be separated.

:'((

On the day he left...

He secretly left a love note in my phone while I was asleep (I only found out after he's gone)

He stayed awake to watch me fall asleep...

And kissed my cheek close to a hundred times while I was asleep..

He said that in the note. *blushes*


^___^

You're the best I've ever had.

"You are only far away from me in distance, but you are right here in my mind and in my heart"

I Miss You!

Why did Monday have to pass so fast? :(

Watched Ip Man 2 on Monday and had sushi at Wasabi Teh in Far East Plaza level 5.

One of the nicest and freshest sushi I've eaten.

Thought the sushi chef was Japanese till he spoke hokkien to the customer who asked a question in hokkien. -_- HAHA!

B was sweet to not tell me he had already watched Ip man 2, caused he knows I haven't watch it yet.

Planned to watch it with the girls during our trip in Taiwan but its ex watching movies there.

Ip Man 2 is so much nicer than The Last Song I watched with bff last week.

I miss bff dearly. She has gone to Thailand for 6 weeks for field studies.

Hope everything will go smoothly for her.

Off this Sunday! yays! Dislike working on Sun.

Note to self: Make a new pair of glasses.

I just broke my glasses at work :(

Damn.

My eyes feel so dry and tired now.

And i can't wear my specs caused I broke it.

Its 3.08am.

5 more hours to go.

I left my specs in my pocket and lean against the patient's bed and I heard a crack sound -_-

Sigh.

Can I end work now and go to bed?

Really sleepy.. YAWN!

Meeting B in the morning for breakfast :D

We are going on a date on Monday :D :D hee hee.

Movie & sushi. yay.

I have something to look foward to.

RANT

Back to work really sucks.

Sometimes I should just keep my big mouth shut.

I don't mean to exclaim to the world.

Thats just me, I'm like that.

But I mean no harm, no ill intentions.

I always get misunderstood.

Urgh.

Made another foe. Damnit.

Thanks ah Vanessa.

Can you please think before you speak?

and be sensitive to people's feeling.

PLEASE?

fuck.

Hate it hate it hate it!

The root of the problem lies with me.

I'm the one with the problem.

Seriously need self-reflection.

AHHHH!!

goddamiit.

fuck.

Taiwan!

Stayed in Xi Men Ding.

Haven't finish exploring Xi Men Ding :( its too big.

Will definitely go back.

Photos uploaded in FB.

Destination: Taiwan!

2 more days, really excited.

Its the first time for me there.

Going with Bi Dan(her 2nd time there, she just went last Dec!), her friend Yinn Yann, Soon Eng & Samantha :)

Always watching Taiwan variety shows, dramas on TV feels like I have already known Taiwan when I have never been there.

Really excited!

Repeating myself.

Really really excited!!

Food, shopping, food, shopping and enjoying my time with the girls :D

Blessed! ♥



PS: TTSH is implementing the Omnicell for dispensing of medications. Went for the training today. Its really complicated & confusing. Why do they have to make life so miserable for nurses? And why must the nurse do everything? Everything also ask the nurse. Urgh. Ask the Doc please.

Because Life's Like This..

I can only accept my fate.

Put on a strong front, smile, stay strong & positive. And hope for the best.

♥Ness

Random.


Bought this F21 top on impulse :( now i dislike it.


While crossing the road with B.


With the girls, planning for our Taiwan trip in a week's time. yay.


:)

Night shift tonight!

Please please please make it a good night.

Meeting B for dinner first.

Turned 21 yesterday!

Celebrated with people close to my heart.

Family, BFF & BF.

All I can say is I am really blessed :D

I should stop being whiny.

And be really thankful for every thing I have.

Thank You :DD

Photos uploaded in FB =P


See the pretty shiny necklace on my neck? Its from B!~ ♥ it V much.

3D Movies again!

How To Train Your Dragon 3D.










We smuggled mac's hot&spicy shaker fries in. LOL.

Great show.

My night went well :)

Thank you for my wonderful colleague who helped me.

Please give me wonderful colleagues during night!

And also less call bells, less annoying patients & relatives.

And of course no falls! and all the patients survive through the night with me. LOL

I have so many requests like the annoying patient.

Bleh.

I'm working on my birthday :(

Didn't I request for OFF alr? Argh.

Should I take MC or go to work? Mmm...

Root-Bear Float!

Had dinner with B the other day.

Watch Alice In Wonderland 3D on Tues with colleagues.

I haven't watch 3D movies for a very long long time.

It was awesome la, the images POPS out. LOL


I like 3D movies!


Polaroid!


Doing night shift tonight.

I wish for a peaceful night. Please.

Yay! Taiwan Trip confirmed :D

Going with the girls in April.

Can't wait.

Really need a break from the physical & mental stress at work.

I've concluded that Nursing is not my cup of tea :(

Sad but true.

It is a job that requires compassion, empathy, patience, kindness.

It has to be cultivated in one self from young, those values.

And not pretending to have those values.

My parents have taught me well, I have those values ok.

I'm not pretending at all.

I'm just saying that its really tough to be putting on a strong front and constantly smiling at patients who I know are suffering inside and sick.

I want to make a difference.

But its not easy.

I know.

But I'll keep on trying.

SIGH.

Do you get my drift?

SIGH.

I am being negative again.

SIGH.

I won't give up!

I still love what I do.

Jia You!

Happy Lunar New Year! :D


Happy V day Baby! :D

Went visiting with B on the 1st to his grandparents place. Both paternal & maternal.

Watched da bing xiao jiang on V day. Its a great show.

Love Jackie Chan's movie.

2nd day, went to his maternal grandparents place again.
Then to my grandaunt's place.


:D


The thorn among the roses. haha.
B with my cousins.



I wished for everyone to have Good Health & Good Luck!

HELLO BB! :D

16TH JANUARY

BFF's 21st! :D






Fire sparkles~**


Zhi Ping, Wei Earn & the rest made her the "fan" board :)


Finally 2NE1!


Birthday Flower & Birthday Balloon :D


Birthday Banner. haha.


With Sean, The greatest help of the day(that day. lol).


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEST FRIEND! ♥
LOVE YOU!

Out with the old, In with the new.

Bye 09. Hello 10.



AT WORK!

Looking really shag.

And my hair is so messy, flying all over the universe. lol.

But I can still put on a smile :D

I'm going to work hard this 2010 and earn lots of $!

And hopefully same up enough $$ too.

Been really spendthrift :(

Mmmm...

Summary of what I've done in 2009:

JAN-FEB: was still a student at NP, went for ED anf OT posting. I will never forget my experience in the emergency department. Seeing people got their elbow twisted in an RTA(Road Traffic Accident) with the bone protruding out. Ouch! And OT where people got their breast and other body parts open up. lolol. Interesting right. I love(hate) being a NURSE!

MARCH-APRIL: celebrated my bday with Jinny in March :) and BB :)) Went on a cruise vacation with mom&dad :D Spent 3 weeks in Perth with Jess, visited her relative in Perth, visit Uncle Nick and Auntie Lorraine in Perth and playing with their dog, Peppy! Aww~ I'm starting to miss Pep. And also went to the Nursing Board in Western Australia to find out about job opportunity. Auntie Lorraine drove me there somemore. lol

MAY: I graduated from NP :) like finally. Stupid school initally wanted to cancel of the graduation due to H1N1 (because we are all nurses and they want to control the spread of H1n1, if all the nurse attends.lol). Never see them cancel other courses' graduation? Stupid. Then I told BB that there will be no graduation so he cancelled his leave to attend my graduation which the stupid school said there will be in the end. WTF. They sent a letter saying it was cancelled then they sent another letter saying it will resume. ??!! 2 pointless and paper wasting letter.

Anyway, BFF came with my baby bro to my grad! Yayness!

MAY 11TH was my graduation ceremony and also marks the start of my career, cause its the first day I start work.

JUNE, JULY, AUGUST: WORK WORK WORK!

AUGUST: BB's Birthday! :DD went to eat at Zhou's Kitchen. yumyumyum.

SEPTEMBER, OCTOBER, NOVEMBER: WORK WORK WORK! BB left for Aust for 6 weeks from Oct to Nov :( was miserable for that 6 weeks. lol

DECEMBER: Genting trip with BB♥♥ :D It was a memorable trip even though its only 3 days. I got to spend 3 quality days with him :D More holidays with BB please.

HELLO 2010.

I wish you well.

♥Clara Vanessa

Genting Trip Part 2 :D

Before I continue..

I was feeling recluctant to go to work on Wednesday evening.

Its night shift. Zzz..

The last time I did night was in Oct.

NOTHING went smoothly, it was terrible.

Hence, I was apprehensive.

SIGH.

While walking to mrt station.

I saw this..



"Every cloud has a silver lining"

My sky of HOPE

I think God is trying to bring across a message to me.

Be positive Clara Vanessa!

Anyway my 1st and last night were dreadful.

HAHA

Especially my last night, it was like shit.

Call bells non-stop. wtf

So angry.

But I stayed positive :)

Oh ya, and something freaky happen around 2am in the ward.

There are only 5 staff during night.

3 of my colleagues went for break.

Left me and Rizalina.

The phone rang and I answered.

Nobody spoke on the line, Zzz.. I put the phone down and it rang immediately.

I answered again, all I heard was SSSSSHHHH SSSSHHHH sound. OMG.

Then it rang again for 3 more times with the same sound. Riza picked up the phone.

We were both freaked out.

It better be a prank by someone wu liao. Damn.

GENTING!~



Above the clouds

Okay, BB and I went to the Theme Park in Genting. Thats our main purpose there. Hee.



It started raining not long after we entered and played a few rides. So sad.



But we managed to play all the rollercoasters when the skies cleared :D


Weeee~


I like this ride. I played this with BFF years back. She felt giddy and her face turned green I remembered. Haha.


Waiting in line.


♥


Now I am going to ride on this with BB ♥


Opening my eyes wider :P


He sat in front of me and kept turning back when it was spinning to look at me ♥

We played that ride twice! I like the cold brezze in my face when its spinning in the air.


We also played those money cheating games. I'm catching duckies with number at the bottom of the ducks. I will win if I catch number 1,2 or 3. I caught all zero.


Was hoping to win a teddy bear. They have this ugly bull dog soft toy in boxing outfit. BB says he'll win that for me instead of a cute teddy bear. Zzz..

We played so many of those money cheating games, toss the ring on the bottle, shooting game, catch the duck.. But we didn't win anything :( :( Boo.

But it was fun playing with BB :) even if we didn't win anything.






Our turn next! Feeling scared? Nervous? Ney.


Excited.

BB was telling me his trip to Disneyland in U.S, he played something like that too, some haunted mansion ride. It was much scarier. Love hearing what he has to tell me about his adventure there. I wanna go U.S Disneyland! With BB. Hee hee.


Buying cup corn. He didn't buy me cotton candy :(


Corkscrew~




We were the first in line to queue when the rain stopped.


& We sat in the FRONT. Hah. We also played the flying coaster. It was super duper scary, they filp you 360 degrees like fliping prata.

I LOVE RIDING ON ROLLERCOASTERS WITH YOU! ♥ ♥♥






starting to rain again. weird halo above me. mmm...


So pretty.

We played till sunset.



Pirate ship!




Thank You BB :D